The first thing you need to understand, if you really want to reach spiritual awakening, is that you do not want to awake yourself.
The first step to awakening is to be honest enough to admit that you do not like it. You do not like to be happy. Let’s try one test. We need only 1 minute.
Can you close your eyes while doing it, or you can do it with open eyes. It doesn’t matter.
Imagine someone you love very much, with whom you are close, and tell him : “I would rather be happy than to have you.”
Watch carefully what will happen.”I would rather be happy than to have you. If I had a choice, without hesitation, i would choose happiness.”
How many of you felt selfish when they said this? Looks like many. Do you see that our brain was washed? Do you see that we are forced to think: “How can I be so selfish”?.
Imagine someone tells you:”How could you be so selfish that your happiness is more important to you than me?” So would not you come to respond with:”Sorry, but how could you be so selfish looking from me to put you before my happiness?!.”
Once my mother told me that as a girl her uncle who was priest, always starts his mission with same words:”Only the sacrifice is a measure of love, and the measure of love is selflessness”
That is unbelievable! I asked her:”Would you like to love you at the cost of my own happiness?” “Yes” she replied. She will love me at cost of her own happiness i will love her at cost of my own happiness, and we have two unhappy people, but LET IT BE ETERNAL LOVE.